Monday, 12 March 2018

Losing a Job is not Fun

Dear reader,

Today I will talk about for me at least a hard topic. Losing a job is never easy and it sure is not pretty. It is always very hard to lose an income and in my opinion, it's very hard to leave a workplace and people you were working with, especially if you loved being there.

It is a very weird time of your life when you lose your job. You suddenly go from 100 to 0 and you do not have that purpose and that motivator to get you out of the bed every single morning. I might be exaggerating but that is how I feel.

A little bit over a year ago I got a probationary position in the City Hall in my little town. I started working as an IT Engineer and Network Administrator. The job was not very well paid, but I loved working and having that feeling of accomplishing something and contributing to the greater good. Waking up every morning and having somewhere to go, having a reason to get out of the bed was amazing. On February 1st this year my contract ended and there was not a possibility of me staying there so I lost the job. I tried to make all kinds of excuses saying that I am fine with that, that it doesn't bother me whatsoever, but I soon realized that that is not a thing. I realized that losing a job and an income is not ok and that I am not happy like I have been telling people. I was trying to get up in the morning at the same time as when I was going to work, but I had nothing to do around the house and that depressed me to the point where I decided to just lay down and sleep. After a week of moping around and doing nothing, I said no more. No more mopping around, no more sleeping... I am going to do something about it and I will be happy.
I sat down and figured out what I want to do in life and what I want my job to be. I love streaming and creating content, using my creativity to make others laugh and just have fun. I would like to have a job in the gaming industry one day, I can't say that it will happen or that it will never happen but I will work hard for what I want to happen with my life.

I know it is really hard to put yourself back together after a defeat but you can do it. Just get up and start working on what makes you happy. Fill your day with happy things, happy thoughts and everything else that makes you, You. Don't let others tell you-you can't do something. You are in control of your life and you can do everything you want.
I don't know if this is helpful or not, but I decided just to sit down and write how I feel. It is therapeutic and it is what made me happy at that moment.

Thank you for reading and I hope to see you in my next post!

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